JesusFreak

2003-12-27T11:19:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl! A little announcement here...I'll not be usin this blog anymore as I hv a more private one, which some of u know...so thx for all the support u've shown me previously. Lurv u guys! N those ppl hu know abt the other blog...post comments!

2003-12-13T17:14:00.000+08:00

I'm spongebob! Haha...anyway...its like less than 48 hrs that I'm goin to be on a mountain...technically speakin that is...-grin- Gonna be in Genting in less than 72 hrs...I can't wait! Never went overseas without my parents before so kinda feel a sense of liberty n...responsibility? Though of cuz! Once I'm beginning to have fun, I'll abandon the responsibility part. Its time to bring the hse down man!

Need to pack for the trip alrdy but mum's not back yet. Given I'm really dependent on her, I'm waitin 4 her to come back as I type this. Choir practices recently have been mentally draining its hard to sustainmy energy, but I'll manage though! -smile- Gonna scream my lungs out when I go Genting. And though teachers don't allow roller coasters...hey rules are there for us to break rite? haha...I'll c my mood if I wan to tk it or not...well...nth else to say cuz if I go on I'll start to bore u guys. Ta-ta!

2003-12-13T17:08:00.000+08:00

You're spongebob, eveyone's favorite sponge! You
love you job and couldn't pass your driving
test if your life depended on it

What Spongebob Character are you?? (new pictures)
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2003-12-09T19:14:00.000+08:00

HEIDI KLUM

Which Supermodel are you?
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Yay! haha...too bad its not Rachel Hunter but I love Heidi's character!

2003-12-04T12:41:00.000+08:00

Days seem to move along at sucha rapid pace I'm like, in a daze! Haha...but I guess other than the bad results thingie, my life is so lovely now! With wonderful girlfriends and boyfriends rawkin with me and...Jesus! I'm so complete now, haha...! Am I in a sentimental mood today? I guess so...hmmm...

By the way, moulin rouge is a fantastic movie...I just LURV muscials. Pray I'll study musical theatre next time. Ha! I just wanna perform! -sings: the hilllllsssss are alliivvveee....with the sound of muuuuusiiiiiccc!-

2003-12-04T12:25:00.000+08:00

kiss on the lips - you're sweet and simple but
quite daring. you move for the kill confidently
knowing the other person wants the same thing.

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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2003-12-03T17:08:00.000+08:00

Who are your Celebrity Parents? by opp_girl_4_tp
Your Name
Your Mom	Julia Roberts
Your Dad	Eminem

Created with quill18's MemeGen!

Wooh!~ Eminem? Thats pretty cool and...freaky...? hehe...anyway, this not a quiz...its called a meme...whatever. Haha...pretty interestin...I'll go do more!

What Are You Most Likely to Utter During Sex by UMAJohnnie
Name
Sexuality
Age
Most Likely to Say	"Your ears are made of jam."

Created with quill18's MemeGen!

Ahha! -roll over with laughter- I can't stop myself...haha...this is sooooo hilarious...if I'm the guy I'll freak, so anti-climax! Haha...ohman...-laughs n falls of chair-

Who Will You Marry? by Sari
Name
Date	May 12, 2037
Spouse	Shane West
Price of Wedding	$578,285

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Wow...my ex crush eh...impressive...hmmm...hehe...

are you sexy? by jeska
your name
do YOU think you are?
male/female?
on a scale from 1-10 you are a	9
other people say you are	::insert what you want to hear here::
your sex appeal will last til	June 4, 2049

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This is how a fucking gangsta rolls.. by starlitelily
gangsta name
gangsta job	enforcer
your fucking problem	wanted felon
# of times you ran from the cops	600
your saying	fuck this shit

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Haha, another funny one...btw, this is just for fun purposes horh....somethings I fill in is funny one k...like boss ah! aha...

2003-11-30T20:00:00.000+08:00

Finally writin sth after so long. Saw Spongebob Squarepants at Suntec today with their Spongebob fair. The toys were so totally adorable! Sadly, the Spongebob that came out to meet us weren't so up to it. Felt pretty fake cuz its like he kept wearin a smile on his face. Unlike his many faces (blushin, frownin...) in the cartoons. Well, he's wearin a costume so...what can i say?

Cant wait for the competition at Genting...at least I get to leave the country. This is the only year so far, and pray be it the only one ever, that I'm not goin overseas. Feels so different and borin. Nth great to look forward to...-sigh-

Anyway, Christmas is comin so at least I have sth big to look forward to...my fav celebration of all!!!~ Oh and I realised my crush on Aaron Carter is comin back. Haha...

2003-11-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

I'm so so so happy!~ Redid a quizilla test. The "which Matrix persona are you" quiz...cuz I didn't agree that I was Neo...I'm certainly unlike him.

So guess wats my result? I'm Trinity!~~ Trin!!! Trin!!! Trin!!! -jumpin up n down in delight-

You are Trinity, from "The Matrix."
Strong, beautiful- you epitomize the ultimate
heroine.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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2003-11-21T11:54:00.000+08:00

The Confidence Test

sylvia, your confidence level is very high

As a result, you may see yourself as an unstoppable force or as one who's been specially blessed. Others likely sense your self-assurance as well and may appreciate your positive personality and zest for life. Self-assurance is a kind of social magnet. By being a sincerely friendly, centered person, you may have collected a close circle of friends with whom you share and celebrate life's experiences.

Your social ability seems to be the trait that you most value in yourself of the five main traits that affect confidence. You also seem to appreciate this characteristic in others.

2003-11-20T14:49:00.000+08:00

I'm sure it's no big surprise to you that your
romance is The Princess Bride. A heartwarming
tale of "Twue Wuve" that has giants,
Spainards and swashbuckling. You really do
think that love can overcome anything. You may
be a touch naive but your heart is certainly in
the right place. You've probably got one of
those relationships where proper nouns have
been replaced with "Snookums" and
"Pookie Pie". Eww. Beware a cuteness
overload.

What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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2003-11-20T14:12:00.000+08:00

hug from behind - you like to feel what the other
person is feeling and see things how they see
them. you tend to be serious and emotional.

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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You are Psalms.

Which book of the Bible are you?
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2003-11-09T15:32:00.000+08:00

as usual, my love for quizzes doesn't stop...

2003-11-09T15:15:00.000+08:00

A GARAGE-GURL. Youre into loud music, hot guys and
wild fashions. Youre most at ease when youve
got all your mates around you and you like to
party. Boys are a game and youre always on the
ball because you make sure youre always number
one.
Your virtues: Confidence, fun nature, sociability.
Your flaws: Loudness, jealous tendency, need for
attention.

What kind of girl are you?
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2003-11-09T15:09:00.000+08:00

My inner child is six years old!

Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can
read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole
big world out there to do it in. Just so long
as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my
three best friends with me, of course.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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2003-11-09T15:05:00.000+08:00

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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2003-11-09T15:02:00.000+08:00

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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2003-11-09T14:45:00.000+08:00

You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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2003-11-04T14:55:00.000+08:00

Can't get into schooldna to do my chemistry test so I refuse to speculate my doom tomorrow (defy that). Why must the servers be down when I need to use it?! Anyways...gotta go for this motivation camp Sec3. Its something, like, to boost your confidence to ace your exams. Doesn't sound like fun to me but I have to go anyway. And the Principal's gonna see my parents on 24th (AGAIN) just cuz I slacked hard in my studies this year. Well, I'm gonna catch up, don't worry! Feeling really good and positive nowadays despite facing all this shit. If God is for me, who can be against me?! Haha...-sticks out tongue-

Life's been really great even though I've got like, sucky results? Hehe, kk, I'm repeating myself. I really shouldn't make that a habit if I want to ace Lit. Am I long-winded? Haha...surely I'm not a person full of air. Oops! Getting too restless that I'm sliding into my swingy-and-full-of-crappy mood. Oh yeah, by the way, watch out for some "dodo" fishball commercial on television.

Heard some peeps saying Ms.Ismail's in the background dancing with a---fishball? -puzzled- I'm sure it'll tickle me hard if I do see it, haha...like FeiJuan said...on tele for the whole day just to catch it...Me? I can't...mugging for chinese so that my results won't rag me another time. All the best to my fellow comrades for the Os, and of cuz, to me too! Haha...being the selfish brat I am...I swear I should learn to be more unselfish sometime. Well, first thing first, mug chinese! Its express and its easy!!! Apologise for the upperty mood, I'll stop now before I bring my crap further...

2003-10-31T14:50:00.000+08:00

Which flock do you follow?

this quiz was made by alanna

2003-10-27T19:08:00.000+08:00

Did some quizzes, thought I'll entertain u guys with it...go try it too...have fun!~

your shit.

What swear word are you?
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On a scale of 1 to 10 you are a 2. You can be cruel
if you want to be, but usually you are normal
and probably often a good person.

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How Evil Are You?
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STAND UP: You are a natural stand-up comedian. You
watch the news with people, and when you give
your opinions, people start laughing. They are
not laughing at you, they are laughing because
what you say is so TRUE. The world is a very
funny place, full of natural comedy. All you do
is repeat various humorous things that you
notice from everyday life. Your unique
perspective on the world is what makes you so
funny. Of all the various comedy types, you may
be the funniest of them all!

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How funny are you?
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You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

What kind of kiss are you?
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Pirates of the Caribbean!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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2003-10-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

Just posted the 2nd entry to my story blog, so go check it out! Pls read and review! Uh--huh...exhausted from the 2003 graduation ceremony. The part where a form teacher sang a song to inspire her class, left me in tears. She choked back her tears while singing until she couldn't go on any longer. If only she was my form, but anyway, mine ain't that bad now...

Awww shucks...would really miss my senoirs. Its like, through this 3 years, they're the one guiding me around, making me feel loved. If there's one I thing I love about the school, its my senoirs. And now, they're going...but I guess life's like that. Changes come inevitably and we just have to accept it, there's nothing we can do. But after witnessing the ceremony today, I've learnt to cherish the peeps of my level. Especially my 2003 class, my fun has all come from this class. When we separate next year, oh man, I'll really bawl. Gonna miss my Grammy, Mammy, Godmae, Xiao Gu, Zhong Gu, Ah zok, Feifei, Jean Vyin, and my favourite Limin...

Anyway, next year will settle itself, I'll cherish the more fun times next year. Being in 3Empathy is a real blessing, plus whatever we went through as a class. Love our class, with that Weixian crapping around. It'll be so damn quiet without him. Hehe...-yawn- Kk, I'm going off, buh bye...

2003-10-20T10:06:00.000+08:00

Been really busy with fun recently since after the BIG 'xams, you guys didn't missed me too much, didja? Hehe...anyway...George Bush's coming to S'pore tomorrow so...welcome welcome Mr. President! Eh...though I think its impossible he knows I exist but well, never mind...

Really into Hilary Duff recently, God knows why. So blessed to be able to perform at sucha young age. Ok, not young, but its like I'm gonna be 16 next year, yet while she's 16 now and travelling and performing, I'm gonna face the Os next year. Awww... -squirming at that thought-

Alrighty then! Better pack myself off to school, having 'xams debrief today and I shall not proceed to describe how I'm feeling about it... -wheez-

2003-10-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

Exams finally unofficially over cuz there's only my fav Lit paper left on fri!!!~ And I thought this day would never come. By the way, you guys should check out the book "Tears of the Moon". It rocks okay! But don't let Ms Yee (lit teacher) know about it, cuz since Twelfth Night is RA to her, this is a hundred times more RA-ish. Considering the sexual contents like the description of sex, blah blah...its not dirty or anything...I think the way sex is portrayed in the book is really beautiful. Just don't look at it in crude style okay? Since exams over...go check it out! (careful you don't get aroused) -grin-

2003-10-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

You represent... playfulness.
Playfulness can often be mistaken for sluttiness or
flirtiness... Flirting is something you enjoy
doing, but you're mostly just about having fun.
You're into partying, and it's seems that
people enjoy your company as much as you enjoy
their's.

What feeling do you represent?
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2003-10-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

Heya! Slaving cuz of exams now but couldn't wait to start another blog to put up my stories. Inspiration given by Junkit... Wanted all along to publish somethin but that nerve just broke upon seein Junkit start. Go check his out too! Must support ah... though of cuz the better writer is still my best friend, Auddy Ol' Pal! She rocks!!!

2003-10-05T19:46:00.000+08:00

KIT--it's like a child going "my daddy loves me in spite of what i do" and some1 says "yeah.. but you're so naughty... by being so naughty to a wonderful daddy means you're mocking his love for you."
SYLV--my daddy is a loving one, & that makes me wan worship Him more..."Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered"Luke 12:7. My Daddy lovingly watches me & even knows the number of hairs on my head, what love! As we all know, our hairs drop and grow every single day & yet God counts it. NO matter how u love a person, u wun treat him/her as precious as to do that, wld u?
KIT-- okiex. =) hahas... but to me, it's not reallie confession that's important.. i ask my daddy God to guide me in all truth... lead me not into temptations.. hey.. becoz everytime i sin, i really hate it.

As we worship You, let all the world come and see
How the mercy we've received from You
Can set them free

As we worship You, let all this joy that fills our hearts
Bring a hunger and a hope
To those who've strayed so far

As we bow in adoration and stand in reverent awe
Show Your majesty and glory, let Your anointing fall
As we declare Your name Lord Jesus as the only name Who saves
May the power of Your salvation fill each heart we pray

As we worship You
Let all the nations hear our song
the song of Jesus and His blood
That proved His love for all

As we worship You, may all the lost and broken come
May they hear Your still small voice
Call out their names each one

As we worship You, as we worship You

2003-10-04T16:53:00.000+08:00

The Big Five Personality Test

Extroverted	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	80%
Introverted	\|\|\|\|	20%
Friendly	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	52%
Aggressive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	48%
Orderly	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%
Disorderly	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Relaxed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Emotional	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Practical	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%

Take Free Big 5 Personality Test

2003-10-03T15:10:00.000+08:00

This entry's for some funny peeps out there. Kinda received weird response abt the hell level quiz, linked it frm someone's blog so don't find me...Anyway, I don't really believe in the quiz at all. Some might find it strange when ur ans are all morally right bu u still go hell, the thing is as long as u put u believe in God, no matter how u put u've sinned, u're still liable for Heaven.-duh-

Anyway, tk it frm me, I didn't get to the Heaven thingy cuz I'm soo righteous, pls...its boring to be sooo GD. Confession: Food is pleasure, Music is pleasure, Bein rebellious is pleasure (tts what I think only...) -grin- It is what! And even though wrong things are bad, I still find thrill in doin them, but I do know my limits, thank you.

I've taken advantage of ppl and hurt them in return and yes, so sorry but I've cheated on my boyfriends before with them end out forgivin me (thank God and won't do it again, passed that playin stage), believe me, I'm no goodie goodie, I hate bein labelled like that, hehe...Eh, don't worry u guys, I won't tk advantage of u all, I've passed that immature stage. All along I thought premarital sex was perfectly fine as long as there's condoms, but after watchin the video abt abortion in sch, I decided against it for myself, haha...

So u see, I qualify for Heaven not cuz I'm sooo virtous, in fact I liken myself as rebellious & naughty instead of goodie goodie, hehe...But no matter how sinful I am, Jesus still loves me the same, cuz I've alrdy accepted Him as my Saviour what...-duh again- I have not and WILL NOT be so idiotic to swear never to sin again, I'm human!

Don't get me wrong, I didn't say sinnin is good but when u do sin, u don't have to cry and beg Jesus for forgiveness, nonsense! Like He'll refuse to 4give me, He loves me soo much. I love Him but His love for me is nth compared to mine for Him. I'll still go Heaven if I kill or backstab or what. Thus, I'm confidently and proudly secured in His great love for Me, its all mine! -sticks out tongue- Hehe... Jkin...

And abt bein rich thingy, if u have God, u're rich lorh, if u're not den...HAHA -grin-

2003-10-02T15:43:00.000+08:00

Happy...err...Belated Kiddie's Day!!! Thankx for all the pressies...! Gonna get fatter with al the sweets and chocolates u all have been feedin me with...-grin-

2003-10-01T20:08:00.000+08:00

A twisted maze.
Lint of hope.

A twisted maze.
Splint of light.

A twisted maze.
Sign of the Saviour.

A twisted maze.
Of course it is.

2003-09-30T15:48:00.000+08:00

That night a child stooped at a corner and cried
Embraced by the darkness of black & loneliness
The tears the sweat were cold and sticky
Engulfed by the suicide of the soul
An invisible coffin was laid
The funeral approaches

Look at her lying white in the comfort of the coffin
A spirit crying out a silent scream & grasping for a muscle
It shoved her, totally muffled and blanked those blessings
She'll never know the Father's touch...

Admist the chanting she struggles, it grips tight
Stop it! Here is bittercold gale, corpses grin
The hold of earth slowly slipping
Shipped to the bottomless pit
Was never told about Love
The Love of the Saviour

2003-09-27T12:47:00.000+08:00

Feel so much better after church last night...Jesus has revived me! Yay! By the way, did a quiz that judge which levels of hell u shld go to, but guess what? I don't even qualify for hell (of cuz in real life I won't go there but I what I mean is the quiz's qualifications). So cool yeah? Even in the quiz, I'm sent to Heaven, yippee! See here...

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

Ok, next here's a personality disorder quiz of me, check it out! -grin- I'm off!

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

2003-09-24T17:53:00.000+08:00

Why do I always repeat my mistakes?
Putting high hopes on man, not You.
Knew all along that Man is not perfect,
No matter how lovely, Man is still flawed.
Drowning in misery caused by deep disappointment,
Yet I knew I could have avoided them all.
Sweet Jesus, the perfect Man, the perfect God, My perfect Saviour.
Wanting only Your lovingkindness,
Embracing You wholeheartedly.
You watched me love someone else,
Burning myself in the process,
All the time reaching out to me.
Yet I pushed You away and rejected You again and again.
Loving You needs no stings in my heart, no emptiness.
The only time God ran,
Was when He ran to me.
To comfort my worn-out and tortured heart.
To say,"Child, you've come back to Daddy.
Give all your sorrows and pain to Me,
I'll handle it as you rest on My love.
And I'll never forsake you."

2003-09-22T18:07:00.000+08:00

Express chi prelims today but its like, shldn't have went to spend time learnin the thousands of words of express chi sec1-4. Sec4 express senoirs gave me the tip-offs, anyway, every1asked their senoirs so every1's gonna score extremely well 4 prelims this time. Wonder why's the teacher so urmm...oblivious to our character, they shld have known we'll do it yet use same paper for both levels.-doh-

Alittle note here...was doin paper den looked around for awhile...looked in frnt n realised Godmae(Clara)'s hair is reeeally soooo nice eh...-jealous- Some ppl juz have evrythin...hair, looks, brains, great ht n wt...hmmm...sounds familiar...oh, Grammy(Wanhua)said it b4 when we were discussin abt Godmae...Anway, JunKit's got the "Forbidden City" CD n I don't care, I'm gonna force him to burn it, yes!-grins evilly-

2003-09-20T21:57:00.000+08:00

-Exhausted- Finally back from an eventful flag day. Got donations from some really nice n cool ppl, all cute caucasian skaterboys -grin- However the rest of the population were like, ignorin my tin can. Waked to Lido while Perfect10 was havin the Mac roadshow, the "I'm lovin it" thingy. Saw Jean Danker, Daniel Ong and Terry Lee from Urban Xchange, so cool...! Jean Danker!!! -screamin away- A girl got a hug frm her eh...I wan! But nevermind la, my Grammy (Wanhua) looks like Jean so well, not that bad...but Jean was soooo gorgeous, cant exclaim enough. Daniel Ong and Terry Lee were so nice, they donated...Jean didn't have shillings but can tell she knows I'm crazy when I saw her cuz she kinda looked at me while I was jumpin excitedly...-blushes-

Anyways, went 2 do flag with Grammy(Wanhua), Godmae!!!(Clara), Mammy(Meijie), Xiao Gu(Gatha), Zhong Gu(Pris), Great Grammy(ZhangZhao), FeiJuan and Aijia and Limin. Though after slackin 4 awhile, our grp shrunked to juz Grammy, Godmae!!!, Great Grammy, Zhong Gu and me. Guess I must have bore u all with the details of the day, but it was kinda fun 4 me so won't mind repeatin the day again, haha...Kk, gotta study chi prelims alrdy. -Zoom-

2003-09-20T11:26:00.000+08:00

Thought I'll drop in before I prepare to go out to do service for the community! Hehe...kk I'm not so society loyalist, its flag day for some sec3 classes in my sch for some senoir citizens thingy...But I tink we all gonna slack-blushes-. I reckon we got a better task than the triple sci classes...HEHE. They've 2 go serve at an old age home izit? Not sure...but tink flag day's pretty cool, got an excuse to go hang around. K, I'm bad...

Last night's Midweek Service at church was soooo cool! Worship was so strong, as usual, the live band was great...but it was the awesome presence of God, brought lotsa tears to my eyes. No one loves me as much as MY JESUS...amen! Got cold feet durin Lit's drama proj so was feelin quite bad cuz my grp didn't fare quite well yesterday. But durin worship Jesus took me into His arms and said not to worry, He's still there acceptin n lovin me though I may not do well in the drama thingy. There's still His love to depend on and dwell upon in. His presence was sooo beautiful I juz wanted to kneel down n worship cuz the power was so strong but didn't, haha...I'll do that at home, hehe...

Pastor said the ultimate weapon against the evil one was tongues, all of us had a great refill of tongues, new vocab eh! Had that after he prayed for a refill for us n the gift to be on those who don't know how to speak in tongues. My tongues vocab has expanded!-grin- When we speak to God in tongues its like our personal conversation with Him and we won't be facin any warfare cuz the devil doesn't understand the holy language so he can't attack....ah hah!-sticks out tongue at devil- Nae Nae Ne Poo Poo!~

2003-09-18T19:01:00.000+08:00

Got something interestin to confess today though it wld be kinda embarrassin since only some know I suffer frm this. Don't worry its NOT AIDS. Its nothin concernin any sickness so calm down k? Juz thought about sharin it in the mornin so well...all for the sake of u all so muz appreciate!!!

B4 I spill the beans I def muz make sure u all got this clear...I'm STRAIGHT and in no way a lesbian k? I've totally no interests in girls in that manner, so there!

I swear my mum shld have given birth to an older siblin, esp an elder sis, b4 she brought me into the world, it'll make my life easier man...Since young till now I've got this elder-sis syndrome, I simply crave an older sis so a few older girls have influenced me in 1 way n another, as in I really look up to them, for whatever reasons I don't know...

Here's a list of who I've looked up to n to phrase it in a worser way, made me suffer from the elder-sister syndrome and u'll see who broke a certain record. Hehe...

1) Mum (natural mother of cuz, not my mammy, Meijie)--3 to 7 years old. Many people also said my mum was my elder sis at that time cuz I guess my mum looked kinda young for her age...n most girls probably looked up to thier mums when they were younger since they're sorta like a role models...

2) Tan Huiyi (pri5 & 6 tuition teacher who was still in Uni at that time)--11 to 13 years old. Really outspoken person, sporty and talented, extremely humorous too! Very sisterly to me though due to the age gap and that I'm only a pri and sec sch student, don't really have so much time to meet up after I stopped pri sch tuition...

3) Erly Shia Tan (Sec4 student at our sch though she's alrdy 18, from Indonesia)--14 to 15 3/4. Really talented too and we were really VERY close, practically like siblings. She really took care of me like I was her little sis, HAHA. Really appreciated her kindness, thx...

4) Ok & this is sorta like the latest 1, a record breaker too cuz she's younger than me though not by alotta months, I THINK... April Bday? Urmm...hope is she reads this, she's not gonna kill me for forgettin her Bday... Godmae!!! Clara Tan (current classmate and I wld def say, friend la and my Hen3 Da4 De4 Gu1) HAHA, she's gonna hack me again for sayin THAT. Yeah, so she's the record breaker...-grins sheepishly- Oh yeah, and she's got talents and brains and looks lor...-bleah-

Yeah and when I suffer from this syndrome I'll kinda always look for that person, attention what...Maybe cuz I'm only child...could it be? But guess this blog entry is kinda wuliao and like I said I feel so embarrassed at tellin u guys all this so I better end this blog quickly and publish it before I have 2nd thoughts n decide not to post it out!

2003-09-16T20:18:00.000+08:00

Hiya! Talk so much abt other things last time that I didn't mention my Dad just got a new car. Say gooooodbyeee to early-morning-buses-that-totally-suck! Yipeee! Now I wake up a half hour later like last time when I used to have a car, soooo wicked! -ohyea...!- Eating breakfast in the car, enjoyin the wonderful ambience contribute by the music...-lalala- Bliss!!! Life just keeps gettin better and better with Jesus! Amen!

Why did I say that? Oral went rather smoothly today, considering its in ENGLISH (impt factor as I suck in chi...) and Ms.Ismail was the invigilator, no sweat pal! Hehe...as u can tell, I'm extremely hyper today! But why did I say that? Cuz Jesus blessed me tremendously durin the oral I never knew I can be so comfortable in oral, praise God...Considering Ms.Ismail's so so so so strict with marks, though she's nice...kk, some may not agree but when u talk to her outta lessons she's really a friend la...anyway, scorin 30/40 isn't bad considerin its HER. So thats y I'm so hyper...-aiya, ppl happee ma-

2003-09-14T20:10:00.000+08:00

Heh...today's church was pretty cool...How do u open God's floodgates of blessings 4 u? Bless ppl! Its like a flow cycle kinda thing--God supplies u...u bless others with ur supplies...God trusts u with more supplies...more and more each time...No wonder those very generous ppl I know are always so generous, me is recipient of their blessings so now my aim is to make others around me the recipients too! Hehe...

2003-09-12T13:03:00.000+08:00

See my new layout?! Hehe, k it may be a little faulty but I simply love the spirited away thingy at the right side, soo cute...don't Chihiro n Haku look lovely tog? -sighs dreamily- Anyway, this is no genius of mine, though of cuz, I am certainly one. -grin- Kk, lemme intro u to this geniu-sy friend of mine anyway, me best friend. Hmm...this tribute is startin to sound a leetle teeny weeny bit lame, urmm...ok, neway, its her work ok. Oh ya, tribute must have name, ok...urmm...full name? Aiya! Anythin la heh? Kk, Audrey Ooi! -applause-

Finally completed that...-phew- Anyway, last night celebrated Mid-Autumn with my neighbour, lighted lotsa candles in one whole row, it was sooo beautiful, like all the candles shone wonderfully in the dark. Suddenly remembered I shld have bought films to take pictures of them, but 4got! Then thought of askin JunKit, but all the way frm Tampines?! So well, had to blow away at the end. Returned home and saw my father tampering with his digi-cam...-flames comin out frm ears- So nxt year I muz tk that!!!

=Most influential Ppl so far= other than Jesus la...
1. Sascha Radetsky- dance
2. Justin Timberlake- music n dance
3. Ethan Stiefel- dance
4. David Tao- music
5. Hossan Leong- acting
6. Xie Shaoguang- acting
But of cuz, the lookers are only the top3 spots, hehe... -eyes wide open- juz realised all my influential ppl are guys...Argh! Shld have been born one, nevermind...Shall I add another list? Kk...bored anyway...
=Top 10 hottest guys so far=
1. Sascha Radetsky
2. Ashton Kutcher & Justin Timberlake
4. Aaron Carter & Shane West
6. Ethan Stiefel & Keanu Reeves
8. Colin Farrell
9. Jay Chou (hehe...)
10. XiaoXin frm "Holland V" -blushes-

2003-09-01T22:18:00.000+08:00

Mel Gibson is sooo cool! Don't think I'm perverted to like him. Don't worry, I don't like him in that gorgeous kinda way. He's directing this movie called "passion", depicting the last 12 hours of Jesus sufferings before he hangs on the cross to take away yours and my sins. Saw the trailer and like...imagine, without Him or if I was without Him, I'll have to suffer what He went thru when I go to hell. Thank God I'm saved! -phew- Go catch the trailer at the official "Passion" webbie. I cried juz thru the trailer so I guess i gotta go buy loads of kleenex when I watch the movie...

2003-08-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

Finally I can sorta relax a little. If u don't yet know, had my CA during dis few days so I know u're missin me but...I'm back! Hehe...(thick skin again...) Anyway, a realisation just dawn on me in the bus in the morning. U see, I'm goin to Genting during Dec with the Choir for the International Sch's Choir Competition(I think...the comp is international la, since got philipines, m'sia, blah blah). So obvoiusly I'll have heavy laugages with me, if u're wondering why am I suddenly movin to the topic of laugages, be patient...hear me out!

Ok, I admit I'm a leetle spoilt(hehe)...Thinking abt all the heavy laugages I'm gonna have to carry all by myself(knowin I'll bring my whole house there). On holiday with my parents, u'll see them carrying the laugages while I'm fluttering like a butterfly(definitely not a moth..) exploring everywhere like a child(positively la)... But of cuz my parents can't go with me. If only Jun Kit can go, he'll carry for me, that was the "realisation" I got in the bus and I come to the conclusion that I'll just have to suffer the load myself, hehe... So my aim now, independent woman! Errr...girl...

One more excitin thing happened! If u do consider it exciting, sicko...I fell down, hit my head and fainted on Thurs. Couldn't walk properly cuz I've got a goggy sensation, almost fell off the chair during the CA yesterday. And I can tell my CA's not gonna turn out gd cuz my head hurt badly that I've to get mum to pick me up straight after that to see the Doc. Good thing the Doc said everything was fine, just had to put me on medication to stable my middle ear.

But the whole beauty of the incident doesn't lie there. When I fainted, I suddenly came to this place. Then I felt Jesus beckoning to me, he lifted me up and put me in his bosom and told me that everything's gonna be alright. After that, I woke up from my unconsciouness. Praise God! Dis kinda things just make me appreciate Him more...
-hugs Jesus-

2003-08-17T18:44:00.000+08:00

Miss me? Didn't have the chance to go online for so long...but lemme tell u! Last night was rockin!!! In case some of u don't know, lemme fill u in. Hillsong church from Aussie had a praise and worship rock concert last night, tonight too, guess they just started...Wanted to go but...work work! Jumped till legs cramp now, but its all worth it Jesus! And ahma came2...miracle man, God really answered my prayer! In case u guys don't know again, ahma is not that old, she's 16 years old but sec3 cuz from HK so, yea, thats y she's my ahma wat! Anything is possible with my Father! Ahma, knowing her type, won't ever go to this kinda events but God fulfilled my wish, amen!

Mebbe I wanna do a tribute today, like thanking friends that have made an impact in my life, here goes:

1. Priscilla Chng: Most comfortable with her so only she knows all my ugliness which u guys don't, hehe...Cuz also she's a christian like me so I can talk abt anything to her without being looked upon as weird. God has used her to bless me so much. Thanks pwi-hee pwa-hee!

2. Lee Jun Kit (kitty): He's gonna whack me for calling him kitty, but...he dare! -menacing stare- Hehe...Most powerful christian of all my friends though of cuz, he's only human, so definitely have some down times too. Sorta sees me home safely after friday bible studies which ends at 9 somethin and u know, a lone girl + late night, u do the sums, so indirectly, Godsend bodyguard of mine, hehe...eats my leftover foods, carries my things if they're heavy4 me...eh...protects me from anyone who wants to bully me. Oh ya, and someone I go to talk to when I'm feeling down and out. Just whenever I'm going thru a bad phase he's there. Nicer terms, like father. Worse terms, maria!!! Hehe...those who don't know what the 2nd one means, go find out urself. No offence arh kit...

3. Carita Chan (ahma):Wonderful friend, puts up with my crapping, gives me shoulder to lie on when I'm tired (very comfortable, u guys shld try). At the right time, she can be a really wonderful person to talk to, just express anything I wanna express to her. Luv u ahma!-hug- did I mention that her hugs are gd?

4. Audrey Ooi: Best friend, needless to say, been so since kindergarten to now, seen me change the most and also, experienced my crappiness....

5. ........suddenly got headache, comtinue with 5 some other time....

2003-08-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

Crazy
Why I would I spend my life longing for the day that it would end..
Why would I spend my time pointing to another man..
Isn't that crazy

How can I find hope in dying, with promises unseen..
How can I learn your way is better
In everything I'm taught to be..
Isn't that crazy

And if I boast let me boast
Of filthy rags made clean
And if I glory let me glory
In my Savior's suffering
Isn't that crazy

And as I live this daily life
I trust you for everything
And I will only take a step
When I feel You leading me
Isn't that crazy

I have not been called to the wisdom of this world..
But to a God who is calling out to me..
And even though the world my think
I'm losing touch with reality
It would be crazy
To choose this world over eternity

Call me crazy
You can call me crazy
Call me crazy

2003-08-10T21:08:00.000+08:00

His Eyes
Sometimes His eyes were gentle and filled with laughter
And sometimes they cried
Sometimes there was a fire of Holy anger
In Jesus' eyes

But the eyes that saw hope in the hopeless
That saw through the fault to the need
Are the same eyes that look down from heaven
Into the deepest part of you and me

And His eyes are always upon us
His eyes never close in sleep
And no matter where you go
You will always be in His eyes
In His eyes

Sometimes His voice comes calling like rolling thunder
Or like driving rain
And sometimes His voice is quite and we start to wonder
If He knows our pain

But He who spoke peace to the water
Cares more for our hearts than the waves
And the voice that once said, "You're forgiven."
Still says, "You're forgiven", today
Today

Sometimes I look above me when stars are shining
And I feel so small
How could the God of heaven and all creation
Know I'm here at all

But then in the silence He whispers:
"My child, I created you too
and you're my most precious creation
I even gave my Son for you."

And His eyes are always upon you
His eyes never close in sleep
and no matter where you go
you will always be in His eyes
no matter where you go
you will always be in His eyes

Sometimes His eyes were gentle
and filled with laughter

2003-08-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

The Change Inside Of Me
Pardon me
If I've been acting strange
I haven't been myself lately
What you see
Is a person rearranged
Someone affected me greatly
And I've got so much to say
Ever since Jesus looked my way
Gonna raise my voice like thunder
And leave the world in wonder of the change
The change inside of me
And I will never stop believing
That you are the reason for this change
The change inside of me

Everyday
I'm taking in the view
Of His glory around me
I'm awake
And I have been made new
By the One who has found me
Words just can't say enough
When all I can feel is love

Your life You gave for mine to save
Its nothing less than a miracle
Your name I praise, because the change
Inside of me is so beautiful

2003-08-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

Reading Princess Diaries 4 for the 2nd time, still hilarious. Brought it to read in the toilet cuz I was supposed to be studying for A maths test but, as I said, it was hilarious and I burst out laughing and was caught. -sigh- Anyways, caught "Home Run" yesterday. Wasn't as good as reviews and the publicity made it out to be. "Children of Heaven" is still far better, and should I point out that Joshua Ang looks terrible in this movie compared to the way he looked in "I not Stupid"? But one good thing in the movie was the girl that played "Seow Fang", Megan something...she's the best actor of the whole cast.

Oh yeah, did I mention that the "gorgeous plague" now goes to the overly gorgeous Shane West? Don't think I'm fickle! -holds up hands to stop u guys- I liked Shane West all along ever since I saw AWTR ("a walk to remember", go read the bk though, much better than the movie if not for mandy and shane). Sascha sorta distracted me for a moment but I noticed how weird (in this sense girly) he looks. Don't get me wrong, he's still gorgeous but not like Shane's who's overly gorgeous. Suddenly thought that guys will find this blog uninteresting, what with my gushing over these celebrities...-grin-

By the way, I've got a tag board! For those who come here doh-ly cuz I think those more observant ones would have spotted it a few days ago already...-snigger- Anyway, for doh ones, scroll down, its at the bottom. Ok larh, don't call you doh k? NO offence larh...

Kk, check this link out: http://www.shane-west.org/Multimedia/pictures/index.html

2003-08-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

Here I am, sitting on the floor waiting to get into church. Its starting to get bored so decided to write my blog in my doodle book 1st then transfer it here later. See, I'm always thinking of you guys, not depriving you all of my excellent entertainment, sweet ol' me! Hehe...Once again, thanks Kit for putting up with my crap and accompanying me to watch a (lame?) teen flick even though he would rather have been watching something better in his dreams. For slow ones, that means he wants to sleep larh! Hehe...

Ok, gushing starts now...Mandy is sooo good! She has looks, attitude, style, everything in her! You name it, she has it! Ahh! My inspiration! -gets in this really dramatic mode and clutching one's chest with thy hands- She's me's role model! Trent Ford's pretty cute too, though the "gorgeous plague" still belongs to Sascha, hehe...

Ok, lets face it, the storyline hit rock bottom but it was the characters that scored, in the movie I mean. The story is so dry -urr!- but the actors (like Mandy!) brightened up the whole scene so I wouldn't say I wasted money. If I didn't watch this show then I'll really cry...

Tremendous worship today in church. Was as usual rockin the house down til the songs became those slow ones, could feel God's awesome presence covering me -hmmm...- and cried cuz He told me that no matter what happens and even if the whole world turns against me, even if everyone hates me, I'll still have a place in his heart. Only this matters you know...Cuz whatever I have on earth is temporal, it'll soon pass on. But what I have secured in Heaven through Jesus is forever everlasting (stressing point here, so don't mind the repetition). So as long as I know God my Father and Jesus is forever in love with me, other things don't matter anymore, they seem so minute to the great Love I've always experienced by my Father. Praise God! -runs to Jesus and buries myself in his bosom as he lifts me up and tells me:"everything will be fine my dear child, I'll hide you in my comfort, just cast your troubles to me and rest in me forevermore"-

2003-08-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

Oops! Mistake! The girl ballerina is called Amanda Schull, quite nice eh? But Sascha Radetsky rox! Should see my journal, full of Sascha, hehe, though I find his name kinda, eh...girly? Well, he's still gorgeous nonetheless...Tomorrow is school's National Day celebration, Happy Birthday S'pore! Can't wait! Wearing civillian instead of U...

Oh yeah, and I think my next blog might just be a gushing over another teen flick again (I'm just another hopeless romantic...though this need not be good...) cuz I'm gonna watch "How to Deal" by Mandy Moore and Trent Ford, hehe...Oh yeah, must thank Kit for forcing urself to watch a teen flick with me, the only one who wants to watch that with me, give him a round of applause! -thunder roaring of applause-

You know, I wonder if I ever told u all, I remembered telling some of u this but not all, so here goes...u know I really love dancing, since young, love watching MTVs or dances and trying out the techniques. To me, thats how I express myself, let all loose man! -starts dancing but remembers I'm writing a blog so sit down- If my future career has something to do with dancing, I'll be over the moon...or was it cow? Can't be cow...yeah, moon... its cow jump over the moon, but I don't know what does that actually imply. -mind starts wondering and wandering-

Oh well, we'll see huh...-yawn- Gotta run to lalaland already so...Nitex!

2003-08-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

Anyone watched the movie Centrestage before? Fabulous! Considering mu huuugggeee love for dancing...Though the setting is about ballet, well, its still dancing though it might not be my favourite form of dancing. The story's great! Unless u're a "wooden guy", u know what I mean right? Those guys who have no patience to sit thru a movie about movie, love, blah blah...Guess this means its a chick flick. Nevertheless, because of the inclusion of dancing, it has become one of my fav movies so far; Not mentioning the cute guy and well, a cute girl!

-Surfing net to find out whats that cute guy's name- And for the guys' benefit, I'll check out the cute girl's one too, wait a minute... Man... this is taking a loooooooooooong time! Kk, here it is: the guy's Sascha Radetsky and the girl is simply stated as Kathleen. Hmmm...how weird can that be?-ponders-

Cant believe I cried even though the touching(not sad at all)part lasted for only a few minutes and lesser than 5, it was so lovely and overwhelming I couldn't control, so gotta excuse me...-grin-

Mum's birthday tomorrow and yet I still have Chinese test. So I'm rushing for time to complete her card and study my test. God's grace will slide me thru! Whoo! Kk, I'm off!
-poof-

2003-08-05T22:26:00.000+08:00

Mum calling4 me2 sleep already so I'll make it quick. Eh...1st time blogging so well, any opinions or if u want, can email me at my address, I'll be willing2 assist u in any way possible. I'm a great person! -grin- All right all right, I'm not that good...hmph! Used to lead a rather relaxed life while ppl seemed to rush here and there. This year I seem to be forced into being a slave of time. I refuse to let it control me... I'm trying! At least Jesus is there to keep me sane or I'll lose my head in this fast-paced society...Well,thats life! -throws up hands in resignation-